As of right now, I am done writing my comps and have been for a month. Yay, glad that’s over, right? WRONG! I have to defend them and that is happening on Tuesday. And I am a mental wreck…I am rereading my work so it is fresh in my mind, but also critiquing it in order to foresee the questions my committee might ask…and in the process I am driving myself crazy!
Every other sentence is “why did I write that” or “why did I not include…(fill in the blank)” On the one hand, I want Tuesday to stay away for a while…and on the other, I want it to hurry up and get here…particularly 1:00 pm Tuesday (because the defense will be over at that time!). I feel like the little engine that could…”I think I can…I think I can…I think I can” I think I can make it to Tuesday without a mental breakdown…I think I can successfully defend my work…I think I can get through this successfully.
I am sure there are some words of wisdom that should come from this experience. But I haven’t found them yet. I’ll let you know if I do. But right now, I am off to continue the questioning of my sanity for doing this whole thing, oh and why did I write it that way?
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